A cyber sabbatical was probably the best decision I made in response to the events of 2013. It’s only been a few months, but when our cyber-worlds are full of lists, advice, stories and ongoing political bantering, it’s natural to wonder, “What would happen if there was one less blog to read for awhile?”
“What would happen if I didn’t post my every thought on Facebook?”
“What would happen if I just… disappeared from the cyber worlds until I felt better about the roller coast that was 2013?”
The world didn’t come to an end.
I didn’t implode into an artistic black hole where my words lost their power and my mind spiraled into oblivion.
No one accused me of being selfish or unconcerned with the altruism that drives my writing process.
On the contrary, I took care of my body, reinforced some boundaries about self-care, healed my heart, and lo and behold, got engaged! (No, I didn’t just meet her 😉 )
That’s quite a return on investment for just a few months off from daily connecting to cyber worlds, isn’t it?
Well, it wasn’t just about what I choose to disconnect from, but what I opted to immerse myself in during this time. More specifically, because of some time away, I “saw” how the way I viewed the world was through lenses of activism, success, chaos, and healing. (Not bad lenses, from time to time, at all!)
Now, though, through the lens of rest, I look at the last few months and see how sometimes, what we think matters the most is a distraction from what we need more.
Through the lens of rest, I see how sometimes, what we need more is less –
Less time with others.
Less information about what’s going on in the world.
Less awareness even, about how we can get involved with positive social change.
Less activism, less pouring out, less martyrdom and more…
I share here within this piece, a few photos from my trip to Costa Rica, where I met my fiance’s mother and father and where I also feel like I met the mothers and fathers of Rest. In a sense, as I traveled these coastlines, forests and fields, I began to sense that I am a child again, not just of Charles and Irene, but of Warrior and Serenity (which is what some say their names mean).
During my time off, I became, in a sense, born again.
I am now… spawn of Rest. 😉
And I am a different person…
I can say that you will see me posting, blogging and engaging not like someone taking a blow torch to both ends of the candle and not like someone who makes a living on having opinions and experiences to share.
Rather, you will observe, at your own pace, at whatever level you are interested, a woman who is making a life…
Viewing life through the Lens of Rest…
Clarity, details, pace and passion can all be viewed through these lenses.
Peace, curiosity, and the gentle unfolding, all viewed through these lenses.
And beauty… not in spite of pain or because of pain, but co-existing with pain, will be as clear as a blue ocean in the Caribbean.
That is why I’m here.
And also then, sometimes… why I’m gone.
Namaste, my lovelies. I’ve missed you.
P.S. During my sabbatical, I had over 40,000 hits on my website. So, I have to say… guess some of you were busy 😉
Gail is an author, poet, blogger and activist whose first book, “Coming Out of the Closet without Coming Apart at the Seams” was published in 2004. She has appeared in FOX DC News and Our America with Lisa Ling as an advocate for ex-gay survivors and young people. Her freelance work has appeared in God Allows U-Turns, Encounter Magazine and Outlook Weekly. “For Gail So Loved the World” is her blog, where she discusses spirituality, politics and social and emotional intelligence from a global perspective. Her spoken word pieces and drumming meditations are available on YouTube and she schedules private speaking engagements where these performances are shared. Her new book, Enlightened-ish became available April 25, 2013 and chronicles her spiritual awakening experience after witnessing a suicide, grieving her father’s unexpected death and leaving a spiritual community. In late 2013, Gail launched a small business designed to support others in writing their memoirs. Teaching Memoirs is currently reviewing new client applications. Gail is the only lesbian known to hold a Bachelor’s Degree from Cincinnati Christian University. Currently, Gail resides in the Washington, DC Area and serves her local community as the Executive Director of a nature-based early learning center.